Uncertainty
Though in general, things are still pretty rough around the edges, today has been a pretty decent day so far. It’s absolutely beautiful outside, so I’ve been sitting and reading and writing in my screened-in gazebo. I am a little sore from all the exercise and yoga that I made myself do yesterday, but considering how much better it made me feel, I think it’s worth it.
I’ve been getting a lot of tension headaches lately, which is really annoying, but I’m hoping as I relax more and manage to process some of this excess stress that these headaches will go away.
I was thinking last night about why I am so stressed, and I think part of it has to do with my visit to the doctor the other day. She is not the first doctor in the last year to suggest that there may be something else wrong with me, and it’s just making me a bit anxious. I take a lot of solace in the fact that fibromyalgia will not kill or cripple me, and I am terrified by the possibility (however slight) that this may not always be the case.
I’m really trying not to worry about it, because the anomalous symptoms that I have, may never develop into anything else. Even if they do, I can’t do anything about it until that time comes. I know that I will be able to deal with whatever comes my way, but the lingering uncertainty is still very unsettling. Hopefully as I get stronger again over the next few weeks, I will be more able to deal with the stress of this situation.
For today anyway, I’m just trying not to dwell on it, and instead am enjoying the sunshine and the breeze. I actually had a pretty decent night of sleep last night, and that is making everything seem a lot nicer.
Hope you have lovely day :)
