The Pains of Stubbornness
Yesterday I decided to try a new yoga workout by following a DVD. It was supposed to make me feel beautiful and strong, and I did…yesterday… today my abs hurt SO MUCH! That’s what I get for being stubborn instead of listening to my body. Regardless, I decided to try it again, because it really was great (this time I’ll just ease up on the ab exercises).
I’m still feeling tired, but I think things are moving in the right direction. While I don’t have as much energy as I would like, I have more energy per day then I did last week, which is a major improvement. I’m also sleeping better and feeling significantly more relaxed, which is so nice!
Operation Meditation has been a little neglected the past two days because I’ve been going to bed too late and so by the time I do some yoga, I am basically asleep… I plan to focus on it again tonight, though I think I’m going to follow some advice and try resting in Child’s Pose or Corpse Pose to avoid issues with my back.
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I was thinking about this blog the other day and worrying about the fact that I don’t complain enough (how bizarre is that for a stress point?!) The only reason I was concerned about it is that I was thinking that maybe I can’t give an accurate idea of what day to day life is like with fibromyalgia if I don’t record all my aches and pains.
In the end I decided that it was ok. This blog is meant to show how I deal with fibromyalgia, not to act as a catalogue of complaints. I don’t mention all of my symptoms every day, because even though I feel them, they are not always the most important part of my day or my life. I don’t want my illness to be the only thing in my life, and I think this blog should reflect that. I think that I can live day to day with fibromyalgia and still think of other things, is an important thing to demonstrate too.
I’m very glad to hear things are starting to move in the righht direction. It’s a great feeling when you start to get some control back and it sounds like yoga and operation meditation are providing that control. Regarding your catalogue of symptoms comment, while I understand you want it to be about how you manage to live with fibromyalgia, it may be beneficial for people without fibromyalgia to comprehend the extent, intensity and variety of pain associated with fibromyalgia, in addition to all the non-pain related symptoms, i.e. nausea, fatigue, irritable bowel, etc. I find that people don’t understand that the pain can be anywhere in the body even in muscles you don’t use regularly or how the pain can vary from day to day in location and intensity and even type of pain, e.g. deep ache vs burning bs sharp stabbing pain. You seem to have covered it off across multiple posts, but may be good to have a detailed and dedicated post, maybe even linked to your description of fibromyalgia. Just a thought.